It has passed quite quickly ’round these here parts and I’m not too sure what I’ve done during it all either! Sigh.
Well, let me reflect:
– I’ve written two or three papers for classes.
– Gave a power point presentation in Geography class on the Republic of Cuba.
– Read an excellent book Looking Backward by Edward Bellamy. While I don’t espouse his beliefs, it was still a good book to read. It captured my imagination and even had a romantic ending. Not bad for a political socialist.
– Went on a little trip with the hubster.
– Got trapped in a snowstorm.
What I didn’t do enough of:
– Inquired into friends’ lives.
– Food shopping
– Hold my tongue and my judgment
We are entering the Fifth Week of Lent and just passed mid-Fast. Is anyone else exhausted? Boy, I sure am.
Today I received words of caution about this Fifth Week. It was that this one week the passion of anger frequently rears its ugly head only to sink its teeth into our jugular. In light of this warning, I checked out the OCA webpage to see what meditation was featured. It was this:
“It is necessary most of all for one who is fasting to curb anger, to accustom himself to meekness and condescension, to have a contrite heart, to repulse impure thoughts and desires, to examine his conscience, to put his mind to the test and to verify what good has been done by us in this or any other week, and which deficiency we have corrected in ourselves in the present week. This is true fasting.” – Saint John Chrysostom
As usually St. John Chrysostom has good words to consider. Sorrowfully, I continue to fail at correcting any deficiency in myself though I am quite aware of the many which inhabit me. Perhaps the awareness is a gift of Grace. To be aware provides the opportunity for repentance. Of course, the key word there is opportunity. What I may do with the opportunity is yet to be seen.
It takes courage to step beyond the presented opportunity into action mode. Fear is a brick wall that is often run into headlong! I’ve many a large bump on my forehead as proof of such collisions! Though if one keeps pounding away, using a sledge hammer rather than their head, the wall of fear will eventually fall down and one can then climb over the rubble. Often on the other side is peace and comfort and strength to manage what the opportunity presented.
So, as I (and we all) continue our Lenten journey into this Fifth Week, let’s all pick up our sledge hammer and conquer that fear of what may be on the other side in order to find peace and comfort strength.
I’ll go first. Okay?